I recently saw this blog by Amy Blackmore, a volunteer at New Vintage. Just passing along what one person is thinking and feeling at the beginning of our Game Plan series.
When all else fails- laugh. That’s what I do. Especially since the last two weeks have been filled with failures (on my part) of epic proportion. Well… Sometimes I laugh. Lately I’ve been crying. A lot. Like the snot in your hair, eyes bulging, headache inducing kind of sobs. Big, fat, messy tears. That’s been my last two weeks.
I’m doing everything that everyone else tells me God wants me to do. I work in ‘ministry’ to the poor, I go to church, I give at church, I serve at church, I listen only mostly to Christian music, I blah, blah, blah. You get the point. And some of that makes sense. Some of it is what God wants me to be doing. I don’t want to toss the baby with the bathwater, especially since my church is awesome and my family there keeps me from going completely insane.
But sometimes I wonder what ‘ministry’ is supposed to look like. I have people who keep telling me that ‘ministry’ is different than having a ‘job’. But I’ve never seen my job as anything less than ministry. My life is my ministry, and that includes where I work, how I interact at church, where I shop, how I treat the environment, how I vote, everything. But apparently that’s not right? I don’t know. It kind of reminds me of David trying on Saul’s armor and realizing how it wouldn’t work. I tried to go out with someone else’s armor and it just isn’t working.
I’m looking forward to the next few weeks at New Vintage. Hoping to get some direction on what it is that God wants me to be doing.
But in the meantime, I will laugh. So…
You Might Be a Baptist If:
-You think God’s presence is strongest on the back three pews.
-You have ever put an IOU in the offering plate.
-You think Jesus actually used Welch’s grape juice and saltine crackers.
-You ever wake up in the middle of the night craving fried chicken and interpret that feeling as a call to preach.
-You know who Andy Vomsteeg is.